I need major help?

alright, ill start at the beginning. on september 7, 2007, sam asked me out. i said yes, and weve been going out ever since. hes the first guy ive ever loved, but my parents hate him because he spent the night at my houe when they were gone, i got caught giving him innapropriate notes, and weve gotten caught for PDA two time. i love him though, but i just got expelled from the school we both go to, so now im at a different school in the same district. im in love with him, but theres another guy at my new school that i like, and i dont want sam to feel like im tying him down, even though he loves me too. im not allowed to call im or anyting, but when i finally get the chance, what should i say to him? i dont wanna break up forever, but just take a break until we can see eachother some day. ill be moving to austin in five months, and now i live in dallas. ill never get to see him, but just because i break up with him doesnt mean ill stop loving him. the thing is though, hes suicidal