Why is it so hard to find the real and true relationship,,i dont want to be a past time or just 4 fun

why is it so hard to find the real and true relationship,,i dont want to be a past time or just 4 fun ..i know,,,here is not the right way to ask and find the right love,,, but i think theres no hard in trying,,, im so ful i cant take the felling inside to me,,, its so hard without one,,,im so loveless,,and why is it so hard to find the real and true relationship,,,so many their but the intention is only for their self,,, i dont want to be a past time or just for fun,.... im really hoping and hopefully what im trying of looking forward here will be fulfil,,, to those who can read this,,, hope you can help me guys ,just a little advis is its ok to and enough for me,,thankyou,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, red